I wanted to see 2015 covered in dust in my rear view mirror as I sped away. As I approached my 40th birthday, my husband and I learned that we had to terminate our pregnancy. It was our first and I was 15 weeks. I can’t even begin to tell you the emotions that we felt. I also had two friends and a cousin pregnant at the same time. It was extremely difficult time. Fast forward to September, we received great news that we were pregnant again! During this time, I found out that a favorite Aunt on my Mother’s side was dying. My Mother was beyond consoling. My Aunt was deteriorating rapidly. My Mom and Dad booked their trip to Paris to be by her side. My brother and I at the last minute decided to join my parents and our family during this difficult time. The day I was leaving for Paris, my husband and I had our second ultrasound. As my Doctor’s eyes filled with tears, she told us there was no heartbeat. I couldn’t leave the Doctor’s office fast enough. I had 5 hours till my flight departed for Paris. I still left for Paris. I wanted to be there for my Mom and my other Aunts. It was so hard to say goodbye to my Aunt knowing this will be the last time I will ever hug her. Through all of this, my husband and I were so grateful for our families who showered us with support and love. Our pain was their pain. Thankful to our friends who sent us cards to let us know that they were thinking of us and friends who cared so much that they couldn’t talk about it without crying. Thankful to my seven year old niece who gave me the longest strongest hug after the first failed pregnancy, words were not needed. So grateful to have the most amazing husband. In light of all our misfortune in 2015, I’m extremely appreciative of those that bring sunshine and love into our life. I’m appreciative for the cards with genuine sentiments, the wordless embraces, and knowing that someone will always have my back. – M, 40
Let her know you’re thinking of her when she’s going through a loss in her life.
